Thursday, April 28, 2011

I just googled "Royal Wedding Schedule"

Call me crazy. Roll your eyes. Shake your head but I am now pondering setting my alarm for 2:50 a.m. so I can go downstairs, turn on the television and watch Kate and William get married.

Here is my reasoning.....Sure, I can dvr it. I actually have it set already. But if I don't watch any of it, it will be hard to avoid the pictures on the internet all day long. And really, I just want to see the girl's dress. That is all I really care about. So if I do indeed wake up at that hour, I really just need to catch a glimpse of Princess Kate in her, what is sure to be stunning, wedding dress before heading back to bed....

Or I'll end up watching the entire thing until I have to start getting ready for work.

I'll report back tomorrow.

Farewell, Michael Scott

I've been a fan of The Office (American version) since it first aired. I've laughed, I've cried and although the show isn't what it used to be, I'm stuck by it. And I can honestly say that when Michael Scott leaves Dunder Mifflin/Sabre tonight, I will be wiping tears away. As he said in last week's episode...

"Yeah okay, this is going to hurt like a motherf***er."

Here are some of my top Michael Scott moments. In no particular order:

1. Basketball (Season 1, Episode 5): When he takes a shot and not only misses but hits the top of the warehouse and yells "WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME TODAY???". Hilarious. I still crack up at that episode.

2. The Injury (Season 2, Episode 12): He George Foreman grills his foot, Dwight has a concussion and throws up on his car and Michael sticks his foot into the MRI machine while Dwight is getting checked out.

3. A Benihana Christmas (Season 3, Episodes 10/11): He brings the waitress from Benihana back to the Christmas party and he and Andy forget which girl belongs to which Michael marks his date on the hand with a marker.

4. Phyllis' Wedding (Season 3, Ep 16): This was a low point in the life of Michael Scott. His behavior at her wedding was horrid. I think I spent the entire episode shaking my head.

5. Survivor Man (Season 4, Ep 11): His crush Ryan doesn't invite him to a camping trip so he goes on his own wilderness retreat. When it gets hot outside, he cuts the sleeves off of his jacket. When it gets cold....he just has a sleeveless jacket.

6. Golden Ticket (Season 5, Episode 19) He puts his Golden Tickets into 5 boxes....going to the same company. Whoops. He tries to pin the idea on Dwight which backfires when hottie CFO David Wallace loves the idea.

7. Niagara (Season 6, Ep 4/5): More of a Jim and Pam episode but still the same old Michael shenanigans. He flirts with Pam's mom and orchestrated the Chris Brown "Forever" dance.

8. The ongoing Michael and Toby battle. Epic always.

Do you watch The Office? What are your favorite Michael Scott moments??

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Infertility Myth Blog Challenge: Stop Trying and You'll Get Pregnant!

Myth Busting: Infertility Diagnosis

April 24th-April 30th is National Infertility Awareness Week. Did you know that 1 out of 8 couples suffers from infertility? It is something that, while common, is still hard to talk about. I commend RESOLVE for being a leader in bringing the discussion of infertility into the lives of everyday people as well as lawmakers.

For this TTC Tuesday, I am participating in the Bust a infertility Myth Blog Challenge. The Resolve website offered up a variety of topics for participants to blog about. I didn't feel really inspired by any of them so I made up my own. "Stop Trying and You'll get Pregnant!"

There are those people who get pregnant after they adopt. They try for years and years and when they make the decision to adopt or stop trying all together, the magically turn up pregnant. Their body must have known that they weren't stressing out about it anymore!!! I'm happy it worked for Charlotte York Goldenblatt but it doesn't mean it happens for everyone.

The first few months of trying to make a baby were fun. I was having a great time charting my temperatures every morning (seriously, I really liked it). It was like this crazy experiment to see if I could get pregnant. Temp spike and GO! Have sex! And when it didn't work those first few months, it was easy to refer back to the common statistic that it can take healthy couples up to a year to conceive. But as we moved into 2010 and my uterus was still empty, I was concerned. We called the doctor, we had tests done and we went through our first medicated cycle that failed. It was then that I realized that I was overweight and needed to get on the treadmill and do something about it. So we took a self imposed trying to conceive break. This is where the "relax and you'll get pregnant" myth entered my mind. We weren't really "Trying" anymore. We weren't seeing a doctor every cycle. And even though we weren't really timing things perfectly, that little voice inside my ovaries said "this might be the month it works because you aren't really trying."

Turns out that I'm not Charlotte York Goldenblatt. My body didn't give a rats ass that I wasn't stressing about getting pregnant. I completed those 6 months 23 pounds lighter and still without a baby in my belly. Stop trying and get pregnant? Sure, for some people. But that doesn't work for most people that have an actual infertility diagnosis.  Science is NOT on our side and apparently, miracles aren't either. I guess I'll just have to keep lugging myself to the RE each cycle and hope that the hundreds of dollars I'm spending on appointments, meds and procedures eventually works. So don't tell me to RELAX. Don't tell me that I should focus on something else for a while. I don't have a while. And relax is rarely in an infertile's vocabulary.

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Monday, April 25, 2011

The Weekend and Giveaway Announcement!

My weekend started on Thursday at the Railroad Revival Tour. It was one of the best concerts that I have ever been to and I've been listening to Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros for three days now. I had never heard of them prior to the show but they put on a fantastic performance. The band consists of about 12 people but it works, ya know? Here are some videos that have been uploaded to You Tube of the concert.

Winter Winds, one of my favorites: The finale with all three bands
You couldn't help but stand there and have a good time during that finale. It was a party. And I did my best not to get a contact high. Damn, there was a lot of weed in that crowd!

On Saturday, I went to San Francisco via Sausalito with my family. Some pics....

I love my Diana

Is there ever a perfectly clear day in San Francisco?

AND....the winner of Two Kisses for Maddy is.....


Please email me your mailing address and I'll send the book out this week. michelle at seemichelleblog dot com. Thanks all for entering and I hope you pick up the book to read soon!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I'll probably get a contact high tonight

I think I should bring some sort of mask so I don't inhale the smoke that will be drifting through the air tonight at the Mumford and Sons concert in Oakland. It's a small price to pay to see a band play live that I have been obsessed with for 2 months now. I listen to their songs nearly every single day and consider it to be some of the most beautifully written music I've ever heard. They are my 3rd favorite band from the UK, behind The Beatles and Coldplay, of course.

Here is The Cave performed at Coachella just a few weeks ago. So excited for tonight.....

Note to self: wear LOTS of Secret deodorant and comfortable shoes. Seems like I'll be standing for a while.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Book Review: Two Kisses for Maddy

I've been reading Matt Logelin's blog for nearly 3 years. I'm not sure how I came across it but it was shortly after the birth of his daughter and the death of his wife. The happiness and sadness of those events had me completely hooked and I looked forward to his posts everyday, no matter how sad they were. And believe me, they were sad.

When he announced last year that he would be writing a book, I looked forward to reading it. He is a great writer and I was so happy that he was willing to write about his grief which I'm sure was not easy to do. He went to India to get inspiration to write the book. India was a special place for them and I'd say he got all the inspiration he needed. What a great book.

I purchased it on Thursday during my lunch break and sat in the food court of the mall reading it. I read the 3 page foreword and was already crying. I decided that this was a book to read at home, in private so I read the first 3 chapters and when I saw that Chapter 4 was about the birth of Maddy, I closed the book and promised myself that I would read it on Saturday. I opened the book on Saturday at noon and finished it Saturday night. I couldn't put it down.

The book ends at Maddy's first birthday, which was in 2009. If you read Matt's blog you know how many exciting things have happened in their lives since then. I hope that Matt will write another book that details the past few years and how he has learned to cope with his wife's death over the years. This is a beautiful book. You will want to hug your loved ones. You will cry, smile and laugh. Your heart will ache for Matt and his family. It will ache for Liz and how she never had a chance to hold her daughter.

Since I am done reading this book and don't want it to sit around collecting dust, I'm going to give it away to one of you....under one condition. Matt is donating $7 from every book sale to the Liz Logelin Foundation. Matt started this foundation to help widows and widowers with young families who find themselves in the heartbreaking, catastrophic situation of having lost a spouse, life partner or parent. Since I am giving this book away, I am going to make a $7 contribution to the LLF in place of you buying the book yourself. If YOU pass the book along to someone else, I urge you to donate $7 to the LLF. Why $7? 7 was Liz's favorite number.

Just leave a comment in this post if you'd like to win this book. And again, please, please, please internet pinky swear to me that if you win this book, you'll make a $7 contribution. It is such a great charity to donate to since the money collected goes straight to helping families in need. I'll do a random drawing a pick a winner Monday morning. Feel free to pass this blog link around to your friends if you'd like them to enter to win the book.

**This book contains profane language. A few many "F" words here and there. You've been warned**

TTC Tuesday: Explaining the Hurt

Over the past year, I've tried really hard to come up with some comparison for how much pain I feel each month that I'm not pregnant. For the common person (who is fertile and had no problem conceiving) I don't think they can fully understand how much it hurts. I'm sure they can imagine how much it would suck not having a baby but the pain behind it is almost indescribable.

It isn't just broken heart pain. It is physical pain from shots and blood draws. It is emotional pain from imagining your life without kids. It is the kind of pain that distracts you from your job and makes you cry on your way to work. It is isolating pain that causes you to turn down invitations to social events when you know women who have kids will be there and talking about motherhood. It is all encompassing. I can't personally think of anything that I have experienced that compares to that.

But as far as the frustrating side goes, I think I came up with a comparison.

Imagine you want to lose weight. Not just 10 pounds but 50 pounds. You want to lose 50 pounds within 6 months. 8 pounds per month, 2 pounds per week. Doable. You mentally prepare yourself for the challenge. You talk to your doctor who gives you advice. You buy a food scale, new workout clothes and a gym membership. You dedicate yourself to only eating healthy foods but allow yourself to have a small, low calorie snack a few times a week. You are mixing cardio, resistance training and even some tennis, basketball and workout dvd's. You are doing everything that you should to lose 2 pounds a week. Eat less, move more.

The first month goes by and you have lost zero pounds. Another month goes pounds lost. You are busting your butt to lose weight but nothing in happening. Nothing. No inches lost, no pounds gone. Your body just isn't doing what it is supposed to be doing. You see your doctor who has no answers for you. Bloodwork doesn't show any strange issues. He suggests a few diet changes but has no real answers on why the weight isn't coming off. You are getting frustrated at your lack of results. You are doing everything you should be doing but nothing is working. Can you understand how horrible that would be?

This is infertility. Sometimes, there are no answers. Sometimes, you do exactly what the doctor says but your body has a different plan. You aren't sure where things are falling apart or why this tried and true method isn't working. Imagine doing everything you can to lose weight over a 6 month period and when you reach 6 months, you have lost ZERO pounds.

Now imagine doing that over 24 months and pounds. It would be enough to drive you insane. That is infertility. I hope I'm making this clear that I am in NO WAY saying that trying to lose weight compares to trying unsuccessfully to have a baby. I'm saying that the frustration of not getting the results you want despite doing everything you should be doing is on the same level. I hope that people who have not had to deal with infertility can understand that side of what we are going through.

Monday, April 18, 2011

A Monday I can enjoy

In my world, school holidays are super exciting. I'm not a teacher but work in schools and I am lucky enough to get most school holidays off of work. And while I have to work the week of Spring Break, in a sense, I do get a break because I don't have to drive all over the county visiting my sites. I get three days in the office to catch up on work, prep for our year end appreciation event and actually get to see my amazing coworkers.

This week should actually be kind of awesome for several reasons. First being a break from the teenagers I work with. Love them but geez.....I need a break. Second, I'm only working until Wednesday. I love office time but not enough to fill 40 hours worth! I am going to see Mumford and Sons in concert on Thursday and I am so beyond excited. Right now, the forecast calls for rain which worries me since it is an outdoor concert but I'll hope it holds off in the evening. The show should be amazing and I'm going with my husband and friends.

The weekend will kick off on Saturday with our Annual Family Ferry Ride to San Francisco in honor of my Nanny (grandma). It is a nice chance to see family and honor my Nanny who loved San Francisco so much. It has been 4 years since she passed away and not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Loved ones should always be honored!

So while it is only Monday, I'm already looking forward to the memories that will be created this week. I hope you all have a fantastic Monday!!!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

What does this have to do with my arm?

Remember my lunch time surgery over a year ago? If not, take a minute and go read it. I'll wait......

Funny, right? It gets better. Back in January of this year, I got an appointment card from my health care provider. I didn't make an appointment in the dermatology department and I couldn't make the appointment that they scheduled for me so I called to cancel. I asked if this was a required appointment and they said yes, after someone has a mole removed they like to do a check up a year later. I was told the appointment would be rescheduled and I would be notified with another card.

This appointment was last Wednesday. Luckily, the medical office is 2 minutes from my work so I only had to take a short time off of work. I went back to the exam room and things got interesting:

Nurse: So you are here for a full body exam today?
Me: Umm sure. Honestly, I'm here because I am FORCED to be here. You people required me to be here.
Nurse: Okay, go ahead and remove all your clothes, bra and underwear included and put on the gown. The doctor will be in shortly.
Me: :speechless:
And why am I stripping naked? I don't even strip naked to get my husband's sperm inseminated inside of me during an IUI (I can't get through a post without mentioning IF. Sorry) I reluctantly removed every fiber of cotton and synthetics on my body and sat on the table, furiously chewing my gum waiting for the doctor to arrive. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. When you are sitting on a table naked, one minute takes 5 minutes and I was waiting 15 total so do the math.

Finally the doctor came in. He shook my hand.
Doctor: So you would like a full body exam today?
The doctor asked a variety of questions about noticing any new moles on my body. He did not ask about the mole I had removed on my arm. The entire purpose of this visit or so I thought. And then the exam started. Ohhhhhh the exam. When they say full body, they mean FULL BODY. I won't get into details but seriously people.
FULL BODY. Okay? Get it? I'll move on.

After I was given that wonderfully thorough exam, the doctor was kind enough to ask how the spot on my arm was doing. Great, thanks. I could have showed that to you 20 minutes ago and been on my merry way. He saw no cause for concern, everything (literally) looked fine and I'm hoping that next January, I do not receive another appointment card. If I do, I will kindly call and refuse the appointment. Yes, REFUSE.

I'm honestly tempted to write a strongly worded email or letter to the department head. I understand that my visit was "required" but it would have been nice to be warned about the exam that was going to take place. Andplusalso, it would have been even more awesome not to have been ASKED if I wanted the exam in the first place. Don't make me take an hour of sick time, pay a $15 copay and then ask if I even want anything done to me. So what do you think reader? Does this warrant a complaint?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

TTC Tuesday: The Next Step

I had this big, long, whiny post scheduled for today that I wrote last week but I deleted it. It was too pathetic. I wrote it the day after I got the call that my blood test for IUI was negative and two days after I took a home pregnancy test telling me the same results. It wasn't a good week to say the least. I had a lot of "why me, it's not fair" moments in which I sounded like a 5 year old who doesn't get what she wants. Wah, wah, wah.

I'm trying to get back to normal but I had my first doctor appointment for a new cycle this morning and that always makes me sad. Considering the protocal for the last 3 IUI's didn't work, the doctor is adding in injectable medicine. When I asked what the difference is, my doctor explained that sometimes, the oral meds don't do enough towards the end of the 5 days of dosage to really build up each follicle that is growing. Taking injectable meds gives the follies an extra boost at the end to hopefully get them where the doctors would like to see them. Luckily, I'm used to giving myself injections so giving myself two extra shots isn't a big deal. I go back in next Monday for a follow-up to see how I responded to the meds.

I have to be honest. It is getting a bit more difficult to be that person that counts her blessings. I continue trying really hard to appreciate my everyday life and the things that I can do. This past weekend I was able to:
1. Help my cousin and her husband move into their first house
2. Babysit my nieces which included giving them dinner, playing school, getting them ready for bed and reading stories
3. Sleeping in until 8:00 a.m.
4. Stepping up and playing softball when my old softball team needed another girl to play. I also managed to get on base multiple times and hit the crap out of the ball. All very exciting. Except I can barely walk today from all the running. Oh, it was a double header.

While infertility and everything that comes along with it does take up a lot of space in my brain, my life isn't so bad. I'm trying to remember that every single day but especially days like today when reality hits me that I'm starting yet another fertility cycle.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Happy Friday!

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend planned!

OH! I have something to share. I was going to put this in my guest bedroom post but didn't want to steal the attention away from the room.

 This is what my husband picked up at WonderCon last weekend. It is now hanging on the wall in our loft.

I want to hate it for being so nerdy but who doesn't love The Goonies? I kinda love it. Shhhh, don't tell my husband.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Verify THIS!

I'm going to be honest. I am not a fan of word verifications. On blogs. On ticketmaster. On anything. I don't want to have to prove that I am a human being. I typed a comment, isn't that enough? Even though typing in the word verfication prompt only takes a matter of seconds, I tend to skip commenting if I have to complete this step.

I also get pouty if I have to go through the above routine. Pull down to pick my account.....wait 3 seconds for the page to reload.....type in the word verification. Still silly of me to get upset over this but I just want to type my comment and move on with my day. Picking and waiting and verfiying is tiring!

So please tell me.....why do you have word verification on your blog? Why don't you?

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Building a Guest Room: Cost Analysis

No TTC Tuesday this week. Honestly, I've run out of things to talk about for the time being. Any suggestions? Email me! michelle at seemichelleblog dot com. Thanks!

We started from scratch with this guest room. We have never had a guest room before so we really had nothing to start with. I tried to do the best bargain shopping that I could and cut out pieces of furniture/accessories that would be too expensive and not functional and necessary. We wanted the room to look nice but it didn't need to come with a hefty price tag. My biggest piece of advice: shop sales and clearances for bedding, google the heck out of coupon codes and hit up outlet stores for whatever you can. I probably could have saved more had I looked around for cheaper accessories (the aqua vases are a bit pricey for non-functional decor) but I wanted to officially finish the room and I love anything blue!

 Headboard: Brinmes from Ikea $99.99

 Nightstand: Hemnes from Ikea $129.99

Mattress, boxspring and frame: From a matress outlet store: $322

Table Lamp shade: Alvine Parla from Ikea: $12.00

Table Lamp Base: Ekarp from Ikea $9.99

Bedspread: JcPenny's online: $55.26 w/tax (online markdown from $100 plus $9.00 off through a coupon code I found online. No delivery fee because I had it shipped to Ace Hardware which services as JcP's catalog store)

Pillows: Bed, Bath and Beyond: $14.99 x 2= $29.98

Sheets: 500 TC from Bed, Bath and Beyond found on clearance: $29.99 (original price $79.99) Bed Skirt: Bed, Bath and Beyond: The price is slipping my mind and I can't find the receipt. No more than $20, I think.

Decorative Pillow: Ikea $14.99 (polka dots); $19.99 (Alvine Flora)

Valspar Sating Finish Paint: $65.96 (2 gallons)

Honey, Let's Run Away to Venice print:; print plus frame $114.99. I googled around for a coupon code and found 30% off framed art. Total price (with tax and shipping): $108.79. Basically, we got the print ($29.99) for free and just paid for the very nice frame.

Floor Lamp Shade: Alvine Parla $15.00

Floor Lamp Base: Ekarp $29.99

Aqua Vases: Ikea $7.99 each

Fake flowers in vases: Michael's $1.99 each (originally $4.99 each)

Wall shelves: Target $29.99

White frames: Ikea $3.99 for a 2 pack

Easels: Ikea .99 cents each (painted white using white paint from Michaels that was .59 cents)

Nightstand Alarm Clock: Target $16.99

Total Price: $1043.59

Still needed: a blanket for the bed, a frame for one more Venice picture that will hang to the left of the closet and possibly something to go underneath the picture of the Rialto Bridge.

Something seems to be missing under the picture...suggestions?

Monday, April 4, 2011

Guest Bedroom: The Reveal!

I won't let my words muck up this post so I'll allow the pictures to do the talking. I have one more picture to hang but I've tried two frames and neither of them work so the hunt continues. But I am too impatient to hold back on revealing the room since it is 99.9% done!

All of my Italy shot glasses, purchased in Italy.

Tomorrow, I will post a complete list of items along with prices of each item. I'm proud of how budget friendly these items were and although the total price might seem a bit hefty (I'm cheap), you have to remember that we started with nothing!

Friday, April 1, 2011

The ABC's of Me!

A. Age: 31

B. Bed size: King

C. Chore you hate: Cleaning toilets

D. Dogs: KITTY!!!!

E. Essential start to your day: a hot shower and breakfast (not at the same time)

F. Favorite color: blue

G. Gold or silver: Gold

H. Height: 5'9"

I. Instruments: my voice (I can't sing but man, can I talk)

J. Job title: Project Assistant

K. Kids: Empty uterus

L. Live: A small town between San Francisco and Sacramento

M. Mom’s name: Vickie

N. Nicknames: Au Bob

O. Overnight hospital stays: Does it count that I was in a hospital from 6:00 p.m. until 3:00 a.m. when my niece was born?

P. Pet peeve: people who don't use their turn signals

Q. Quote from a movie: “Ben, this whole idea sounds pretty half-baked." "Oh, it's not. Its completely baked."

R. Right or left handed: Left

S. Siblings: 1 older sister

T. Time you wake up: For the gym- 5 a.m.; Non gym mornings 5:50 a.m.

U. Underwear: Victoria's Secret

V. Vegetables you dislike: All

W. What makes you run late: If you are 15 minutes early, you are on time. If you are on time, you are late. And if you are late, don't even bother showing up.

X. X-Rays you’ve had: Left arm when I broke it in 1st grade

Y. Yummy food you make: Chicken. I make a mean oven roasted chicken.

Z. Zoo- favorite animal: Elephants!

Happy Friday everyone!