Thursday, June 30, 2011

First World Problem

Problem: Canceling our awesome, amazing, great location for a great price tickets to see The Book of Mormon (the musical) since we won't be going on vacation next week. When I called to cancel the tickets, even the lady on the phone seemed surprised that we would be canceling the tickets. I wonder if they posted them for sale or if they go into a special pot to be given out in the lottery before the show. Whatever. They don't belong to me anymore so I don't care. But I obvious do care. Cry.cry.cry.

The bigger problem: Realizing that we still both really, really, really want to go see this show and upon searching on Stubhub, discovering that two tickets for crappier seats will cost a lot more. And we purchased them anyway. I closed my eyes when I hit "order." It was that painful. For the next few weeks, I'll be cutting back every penny that I can in order to make room for that purchase in our travel budget.

I realize these are First World Problems. We are blessed to be going on this vacation in the first place (on the second try, at least) so my OMG POOR ME and my CRAPPY BROADWAY TICKETS BUT STILL BROADWAY TICKETS whine isn't really pity worthy. I get that.

But seriously, from Orchestra to BFE Mezz.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Lacking motivation

I don't know why but the past week has been tough for me! My morning workouts didn't happen, my calendar of things to do around the house got ignored and I just have watched the clock fly by in the evenings. Before I know it, it is time for bed and the repetitive days all start to blend together.

I'm in "slow" season at work. Summertime means I stay in the office 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week. This summer I have loads more work to do than usual which means that downtime is minimal. I need that downtime after the insanity that was this school year. I have a to do list that makes my blood pressure rise to look at and it doesn't help that my mind can't seem to come to terms with the loss of our vacation next week. I was so ready to walk out of here Friday and say goodbye for a week. I needed this week to be away. Oh well. Time to move on.

This morning I pulled myself out of bed, talked to my cat who looked so comfortable sleeping in bed with me and forced myself to the gym. Once I'm out the door, there is no going back although I do miss the extra sleep. I just need to get back into the routine because I have no other option. And tonight when I get home, I plan to put some chicken in the oven (thank goodness for a "cool" day today!) and do some housework while it cooks. It feels so nice walking into a clean house so I don't want to fall too far behind on my cleaning calendar.

I'm not going to lie. This weekend, especially the 4th is going to be hard. We should have been leaving Saturday night and Monday evening should have been spent in DC watching fireworks. I'll be spending the morning at the local parade, going to my sister's house for a BBQ and watching the not super impressive fireworks in my town from my backyard.....with a glass of wine in hand. And red vines (thats a family tradition). I'll be wishing I was back east with my husband but I'll get through the day and look forward to leaving on our trip a few weeks later. Please time, fly by!!!!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Delayed/Postponed/Fingers Crossed

Just a few hours after I posted our planned itinerary for our big trip, I got a call from my husband.

We would have to cancel our trip and move it to another date. I was at my sister's house for my niece's birthday. He felt awful about telling me when he did but he didn't want to wait until the next day. I cried and cried and even left the birthday party before we had cake. Unheard of for me! I got home and sat in the dark, allowing myself to process the news.

Normally, something like this would be disappointing. Its a lot of work to reschedule stuff and it is going to cost a bit more money but that isn't what made me sad. Our trip had us in Washington D.C. on the 4th of July. That is the whole reason we planned the trip for that week so we could be in our Nation's Capitol on the 4th. Its on my bucket list, if I had a bucket list. We were getting so close that I started to picture myself sitting in The Mall, staring up at the Washington Monument and watching the explosion of colors in the sky. I could taste it. And now it is gone. Along with killer seats to see Book of Mormon the Musical in New York. I can get my money back for the seats but the show is completely sold out. Not going isn't an option so we are going to suck it up, close our eyes and buy tickets on Stubhub.

That leads me to our plan. We are going on this trip later in July. We have tentative dates that should work but I've been living in the world of "should" for weeks now. We should be getting on a plane this Saturday. We should be enjoying the fireworks and the play. But instead we'll both be at work and on the 4th I'll attempt to enjoy spending the day with my family and see the janky fireworks that my town puts on and I will NOT be watching the Washington D.C. fireworks on tv because that would be like salt in an open wound.

There are some good things about moving our trip but I'm not quite to the point where I can smile and say "its a good thing!" yet. So I won't. I'll just get through the next two weeks and move on when I know we can book our trip, take #2.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Happy I'm going to go cry

I was pretty excited when my sister told us that she was pregnant with their first child. She gave me a box of gum.* It took me a second to understand. Did I have habitual bad breath? She looked at me with big eyes and POOF. My brain started working, tears poured out of my eyes and I got it. I was going to be an aunt. My sister and her husband were on Team "We aren't finding out what we are having ahead of time." A team I cheer against but the memories I have of being told "Its a girl" were so thrilling. I can still picture it. Me, my mom and my dad standing in the hallway of the hospital and after hearing the news, we had a little group hug.

Today that little girl turns 6. Six years old. And it is her last day of Kindergarten. And for all the emotions that must be running through the minds of her parents, Au Bob is feeling quite emotional about it. Where did the last 6 years go? How is it possible that time can really move so quickly. I was looking at her the other day and realized that she isn't a little girl anymore. I know she is too young to be called a "young lady" but she sure isn't the baby I once held in my arms. She is so long and dangly that picking her up and carrying her is out of the question. But I still hear her yell "AU BOB!!" when I knock on the front door of her house and she lights up when she seems me. Being an aunt is a gift and I'm so lucky that it was a gift given to me.

My first time holding her, three days after she was born.

We are both so young and small. :)

I love you Diana!!! Happy Birthday!

*Can anyone name with the box of gum came from???*

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I'm a Liar who Lies

"I'm infertile, okay?" is what I wanted to say when I was recently asked if me and my husband had thought about having kids. Infertile. It sounds so final, doesn't it? defines it as "not fertile or productive especially: incapable of or unsuccessful in achieving pregnancy. Delightful sounding synonyms include: barren, fruitless, impotent, sterile, unfruitful. OH and then at the bottom of the listed definition it actually says, "What made you want to look up infertile?" Oh, if you only had two years worth of time for me to tell you the story.

Back to the point. I was asked the question I spend a lot of time dreading if I know I am going to see family members or friends. I really do dread it. A lot. Those close to me know not to ask or they inquire about how our treatments are going, how I'm doing mentally and what our next steps are. But there are many people that aren't "in the know" yet. I would be more than happy to share the news but I'm not sure my husband wants that kind of business going out to just anyone, even family.

So when I was asked the question (I felt it approaching before it was off the person's lips), my stomach dropped, I'm sure my face turned red (good thing I was already sunburned) and I stumbled to come up with some sort of answer that didn't involve making everyone within earshot horribly depressed on a happy family day. Because hearing someone say "I'm infertile/barren/fruitless/impotent/unfruitful/sterile" isn't exactly exciting. My answer was yes, we've thought about having kids but there are some things that we'd like to do before that happens. I blamed my house. HA. How lame is that? The "reason" I gave for not having kids right now is because it is a lot of work to keep up a house. HAHAHHAHAHAHA. This person must think I am totally stupid. Like, how can I expect to take care of a kid and a house if the thought of mopping a floor and dusting a shelf is overwhelming. I'm sure that person is calling CPS right now and getting a team of social workers assigned to look over me.

I lied. I think most of us in the "barren" group lie. I don't blame the question asker. Its not as if it was a stranger asking me. Family is curious and we have been married 3 years, I ain't young and it is the next logical step. But I really wish I had the balls to give some completely random, inappropriate answer.......

1. Kids? Yeah, we thought about kids when we were trying to make one this morning. Heeeyoooo!!!!

2.  Do we want kids? Sure we do. Well, I think. I don't know. It changes every day.

3. Kids? No. Kids are weird and ugly. And they poop and expect YOU to clean it up!

4. Aren't kids kind of expensive? Ugh, I'd rather spend my money at the vending machine at work and not have to feel guilty that the .75 cents I just dropped on that Kit Kat could have gone towards Junior's college fund.

5. Kids? Yes, we'd love to have kids. We've been trying for a while and its just not working. Do you think we're doing it wrong? Let me draw you a diagram of how we do it. You have kids, maybe you have some tips.

6. Kids? Yes. I love kids. In fact, every time I hear about a new family member or friend getting pregnant, my heart breaks a little bit wondering when it will be my turn. And when I see the joy in my parent's faces when they see their 2 grandchildren, I cry inside knowing that I'm losing days, weeks, months and years of being able to see them be grandparents to my kids. And the guilt I feel about not making my sister an aunt (biological aunt that is), or my in-laws grandparents soon eats away at my soul. Torture on an almost daily basis. So yes, we do want kids. We just aren't sure how to make it happen.

Feel free to ask but know that I might lie to you. Please, don't hold it against me.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Celebrity Trash

Please click "Comment on this post" and share your insights about Hugh Hefner and his "fiance" breaking up just days before their wedding.

I don't care if the media reports that invitations were sent out for this wedding that was to take place this past Saturday. I don't believe it one bit. This girl (who, by the way, looks way older than 25) has serious issues for even being in a "fake" relationship with this man. Just like Kendra and Bridget before her. And while I think Holly Madison is adorable, she actually was in a relationship with him and that is just gross. I actually heard that she underwent several IVF cycles to get pregnant while in a relationship with him. Anyways.....this Crystal girl had a single drop last Tuesday. The same day she fled the mansion, saying the marriage just wasn't what she wanted anymore. And now she is in Vegas hosting a pool party while Hef is lighting up Twitter, dropping the names of every single blonde bimbo that is stopping by the mansion to "comfort" him.

And now this. Man, the world of Playboy is just weird. Did Kendra talk about this in depth in her book because if she did, I'd love to read it. It is just so fascinating while being disgusting and fake at the same time. Obviously, Hef didn't really intend on marrying that girl. It was all for show. It put his name and his brand in the headlines, it got her single on the radio and it gave him a chance to find a new girl to date (the ex's best friend!) so the stories wouldn't die out.

I feel like I have spent enough time watching E! News and watching these reality shows to know this these relationships are all for show. No one goes on The Bachelor/Bachelorette to actually find love. The Real World isn't real and neither was The Hills. It is all contrived b.s. to be famous or to create a brand name out of your life. When these people are old and wrinkled (or unwrinkled thanks to surgery) no one will care about them. They will be on Celebrity Apprentice Season 23 and all of us normal folks will be laughing at how sad they are. long before Anthony Weiner shows up on a reality show? It has to happen right? Blagojevich did it. Most other disgraced athletes/politicians do it. Only a matter of time....

Monday, June 20, 2011

Gardens, Graduates and Golf

It was a busy weekend. It was a hot weekend. My blood must have been pretty sweet because I have multiple bug bites on my arms, legs and face. Yes, I have a bug bite on my face.

I spent many hours working on the front yard this past week. I even planted these two flowers after my dad trimmed back our rosemary bush. The flower on the left is already wilting. Heat resistant my butt.

My Sister in law graduated from high school on Saturday. I drove her and a friend to graduation early so she could take pictures with her friends. While we were waiting, I got yelled at by the campus monitor that has been at the school since before I went there. It was disrespectful and unnecessary so I emailed the Principal a complaint. Nonetheless, it was a beautiful ceremony and we are all so proud of our graduate!

Our family has a tradition of going to the local golf course, eating breakfast and practicing our putting on Father's Day. Pretend that there is a stellar picture of me, my sister and my dad below. I have an actual picture but it is just not flattering for any of us so I'm not going to post it.

 My Brother in law teaching his daughters proper form

 My dad with hands on grandparenting

Me and Amy taking a walk, hand in hand. How cute are her pigtails?

I've also rejoined the softball team and we had our first game of the new season yesterday. I played catcher and outfielder and managed to get on base once. I also got some color on my arms and face from all the time spent in the sun which had me completely WIPED OUT by the time Sunday night rolled around. I was not ready for my alarm to go off this morning. The countdown is officially on for our vacation and I am getting more excited by the day. I can't wait to spend time with my husband see explore two of the most exciting places in our country!

I hope everyone is surviving their Monday!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Every Morning....

When my husband gets home from work each morning, he texts me a picture of our kitty sleeping in our bed. It is equal parts husband adorable and kitty adorable because he really does love her enough to swoon over her curled up on her blanket (my old robe) on our bed sleeping. A small part of me is jealous because I have to deal with the kitty that tries to wake me up in the morning by standing on my nightstand and gnawing on my clock radio. She must be teething.

 So tired from waking mommy up at such an early hour on her day off from the gym

 What? You woke me up.....

 back to sleepies, all curled up.

 Who is it? Oh its daddy...

 This is my favorite. She is propped up on a pillow, all up in my husband's face when he woke up that day. 

This robe is comfy. Come lay down Daddy.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Giveaway Winner.....

Azine said...
Save my feet!! Some foot TLC would be awesome :)

Congrats Azine!!! Please email me at michelle at seemichelleblog dot com so I can get your address. Thanks everyone for entering and I hope your feet get in fabulous shape this summer! :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Giveaway! Last Chance to Enter

Click over to THIS post and leave a comment if you'd like to be entered to win this fabulous foot creme. I'll pick a winner tonight and post the name tomorrow morning.

AND....I've already made fantastic progress on cleaning up my house. I made a very long list of everything that needs to be done and last night, I knocked out quite a few items. I feel confident that my nightly to do list will help me accomplish getting the house in order in just a couple of weeks!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Operation Do Something About It

I tried to go to sleep last night but a small thing was keeping me from falling to a comfortable slumber. Did I say small thing? I meant major thing. Our house. Is a mess. There are just unfinished projects and "puddles" of crap all over the place. To better hold myself accountable for doing something about this, I took a tour this morning, camera in hand, and below you will find the pictures as evidence. I've got some work to do.

 Built in desk area AKA Crap Collector

 Kitchen countertops AKA unfinished cabinet storage/I haven't emptied the clean dishes in a week so dishes sit on the counter for days

 Pub table AKA Crap Collector #2

 A box from Barnes and Noble that is empty and should be thrown away. Flip flops from mowing the lawn last night

 Cheap ass blinds with missing pieces

 Front window with no shades (they are sitting in the garage, collecting dust and cricket carcasses)
 Coat hanger that my friend gave me that needs new hooks (that we have sitting in a bag on Crap Collector #1)

 Empty wall in dining room seriously in need of a picture or two

 Recently unused media console sitting in the hallway

 Box that our new desk came in and ladder for fixing this annoying thing in our vent that keeps breaking and making noise

 Loft with old Ikea couch that is covered in cat hair; Ikea chair in place of an actual desk chair and coffee table covered in junk

 Spare room that is my 30 Day Shred room/Total Gym equipment that doesn't get used/Spare furniture

 Random clothes/cat carrier/ medicine ball/laundry basket filled with CRAP

Still empty space above our glorious buffet

Don't you like our open front cabinets on our island? I don't. 

We aren't going for a mismatched cabinet look. 

Many of these projects I WILL take care of. Husband is going to work on finishing the cabinets as soon as his busy work schedule ends and I promise to spend an hour each night cleaning up specific areas in our house. I have an hour. Heck, I have three hours and there is NOTHING on tv during the summer so really, I have no excuse. 

Does anyone else have unfinished projects/puddles of crap around their house? Or is everyone perfect and tidy and keeps things in order despite working 40 hours a week? If that is you, don't comment. I'd like to keep the illusion that everyone's house looks like mine.

Monday, June 13, 2011

I can only do my best

Maybe it is just the blogs or websites that I read, but I am noticing a huge food movement towards vegetarianism, eating "clean", eating local, etc.

I must confess: I'm doing none of the above. I might be the worlds pickiest eater. I didn't even eat salsa until about 6 years ago. Or sour cream. I don't know what was wrong with me but I go back in time and think of all the fun I was missing out on by not dipping my chip into lovely, yummy salsa and I weep. I won't carry on about the joys of sour cream because I could go on forever.

I recall sitting at the dinner table for HOURS when I was younger because I wouldn't eat my peas (gross). I do remember eating certain foods that I refuse to eat now but I think its because my taste buds weren't fully developed. I'm sure my mom can remember (and might chime in) about when my picky habits started but they haven't ended. I'm picky. Luckily, my husband tends to be at the same level so I don't have to feel embarrassed about eating (and not eating) certain things.

Once, while eating a delicious, amazing, juicy steak, I said "I could never be a vegetarian, I love steak too much." To which my dad replied "you couldn't be a vegetarian because you don't like vegetables." True that. I don't. Smells drive a lot of what I will and won't eat and the smell of broccoli makes me dry heave. I don't care how much cheese I can melt on top. Dry. Heave. Barf.

I buy snacks that come in a box that have billions of ingredients that I can't pronounce. I don't really eat too many vegetables although I do add spinach leaves into my smoothies everyday and mix it into my romaine only salads every now and again. Spinach tastes very planty. I have an apple a day. I make chicken at least 3-4 times a week for dinner. I make tacos with ground beef. Not ground turkey or chicken or tofu. Red, ground beef. And I love every second of taco night. I don't really drink sodas and tend to consume loads of water. I love candy. A lot. If vegetarians refuse to eat meat, I refuse to eat fish. What does that make me? Fish smell and look funny and come from the ocean. Something about that freaks me out. I realize my weight issues are due to my food choices but I know plenty of "healthy eaters" who are overweight so I know it is more of my overeating that dooms me.

I may not be doing all the right things for my body and I am fully aware of that. I think about changing and trying new things but again...dry heave, gag reflex, barf.  I enjoy not coming across as a preachy know it all who thinks my way is the best way. Whoops, I think I released some venom there. Again, maybe it is just the things that I am reading and perhaps I should STOP reading them. But I can only do my best and when I'm ready to reach out and try harder to eat better, I will. I think adding spinach into my salads and smoothie is a pretty big step for me.

In the meantime, I'll enjoy my perfectly baked chicken for dinner tonight and the Pretzel M & M's I'm going to eat with my lunch. And when I'm in New York and I order a slab of prime rib at a steakhouse, my heart will go pitter patter as I cut into it with my knife and ignore the side of veggies on the plate. And I'll enjoy life and not be consumed and obsessed with doing the "right thing" according to the world. I'll do the right thing according to me.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Giveaway: Burt's Bees Coconut Foot Creme

I blogged about a year ago that I was using this product to smooth away my dry, cracked heels. The time has come to start using it again so my feets are all ready for summer sandals. This product is best used every single day. I skipped a couple of days when I first started using it again and my feet suffered. I already notice a huge difference in my heels and I can't wait until they are soft and crackless. Crack-free? Whatever.

Now it is your turn to have crackless feet! I thought a nice little giveaway would be just what I need to get out of my blogging slump so I picked up a bottle of the foot creme when I was at Wal-mart yesterday to give away to one of you!
Just leave a comment by Wednesday June 15th and I will announce the winner on the 16th. Also, if you want to get TWO entries to win, blog about this giveaway on your blog and leave an additional comment letting me know.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

The Great Divide

The pace at which I blog has slowed down and I don't like it. I really love blogging. I feel like I have a lot of random things to say and this is a good place to express those thing and use some creativity since I love writing.

Lately, I just don't feel like I have a lot to contribute. I'm failing at losing weight because I can't seem to get my calorie count down. I'm not really doing much of anything outside of work and exercise because of my husband's work schedule. We aren't doing any fertility treatments due to said work schedule so I can't even whine about blood draws and invasive procedures and fertility meds.

The majority of blogs that I read are written by mothers or women that are pregnant....some with their second child. (Stab me in the heart please.) They always have funny things to share or write those monthly letters to their child detailing every milestone that their kid reached. Or just sharing pictures of their kid reading a book upside down or walking in the driveway wearing cute shoes. I have none of that. I guess as a married but childless person, I'm finding that I'm running out of things to blog about. I know after my trip next month to DC and New York, I'll be flooding this blog with pictures and stories and reviews and you will be like "OMG shut up and go back to not blogging because this is horrid, if I wanted to hear about these places I would just go myself." So what, who cares? I'm going to do it anyways. :)

I could write about current worldly events in the news but that would turn into blogging about celebrities that look like lesbian baristas.  I was talking to my mom the other night and she said "are you following the story about that guy, Weiner? That's his name right? It just sounds so...." I stopped her and said "yeah its weird because his last name is WEINER and well, we know what he did." Going into politics anymore makes the room spin and the last thing I want to write or think about is that we are about to go through ANOTHER long Presidential election process. Lord, help us. And by "us" I mean Republicans. Can someone decent please step forward. Sheesh.

So I'm not a mom. I'm not pregnant with my first child and not even close to being pregnant with my second. I don't want to whine too much on the blog but I honestly don't have that much to whine about anyways because nothing is going on in my life. I guess that is a blessing. I'll try not to be depressing as a blogger because well, who wants to read depressing things? I don't. I have actually thought about cleaning up my Google Reader of blogs that make me furrow my brow and shake my head.

Please, don't clean me out of you life. I promise to be interesting again real soon. If there is anything you would like me to blog about, please suggest it in comments. Even if I know nothing about the subject, I'll do some research and make it up as I go along. I have a feeling that's what some bloggers do anyways.

I don't get it. I'm not supposed to but still...

This is attractive to tweens and teens? THIS? I'm sorry and I do not mean to offend anyone by saying this so know that in advance. But the kid above looks like the lesbian barista that works at the Starbucks me and my friend go to during our work breaks. Maybe it is the cobalt jacket. No, it is for sure the hair. And the pre-pubescent face.

And can I also say that I think it is inappropriate for homeboy and his girlfriend to go to Hawaii together on vacation? He is 17 years old. I really hope they were there with one set of parents and not just body guards but from the pictures I saw, they were making out all over Maui and his hands were placed firmly on her tush the entire time. GROSS. I know kids do the same stuff in high school. Believe me, I see it. Sometimes, it hits me square in the face when I'm walking down a hallway and I see two kids swapping spit like the world is ending. But I just hate to see a 17 and 18 year old going on a Hawaiian vacation together as a couple. It is gross. Are they sharing a bed? OMG are they having sex? I know, I shouldn't care but I feel weird about it. Does fame and money give KIDS free reign to do anything they want? Can their parents not say no because they are living off of their kids paychecks? Are either of their families religious because that has to come into play here right? I doubt their Pastor's or Minister's or Priest's would think it was cool that Mama Bieber or Daddy Gomez would allow their CHILD to go to Hawaii alone with their boy/girlfriend.

I should really get a life but I don't understand celebrity. I don't care how much money it would give me or how "easy" my life would be, I would never want to be famous. Not even for something good like saving a puppy from an oncoming train or pulling a child from a rushing river.

Because then people like me would make blog posts being critical of my decisions and well, who the hell are they?

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

To Infinity and Beyond!

3 years ago, we got married. We were both pretty excited.....

But our marriage isn't defined by that special day and in three years of marriage (on top of the first 4 years of dating), we have been lucky enough to experience so much together.

We went to Maui on our honeymoon and discovered paradise together. Chris found a new job and discovered what it felt like to actually enjoy going to work everyday. We spent 7 weeks apart 9 months into our marriage when his wonderful job went into overtime and had him living with his parents. We reunited just in time for our first year anniversary trip to Disneyland, a first time visit for my husband.

We dove head first into house hunting and after multiple viewings and 7 offers, we closed on our first home on September 24, 2009. We moved in on Halloween and basked in the glory of having a space to finally call ours. We gained a furry family member and life with our Kitty couldn't be better. She is our love. The dream of putting a child in one of those spare bedrooms hasn't been easy. In fact, it has been downright miserable, heart-wrenching, tear jerking, anger filled and depressing. It has been life changing and the biggest struggle I've ever faced in my life. But that guy in the pictures above has been my rock. He is what a husband should be when facing adversity. We move forward with our lives, going to Hawaii this past October to see the Ironman and taking a trip this summer to Washington D.C. and New York. A trip that I have dubbed the "Life Moves Forward" tour of 2011.

We carry on each day hoping that the dreams we have will someday come true but we know that deep down, our love for each other is unwavering and strong. My days and nights are filled with laughter because of him and for me, for now, that is enough.

We had our first date on July 31, 2004. We've lived together since April 25, 2006. We got engaged to be married on February 19, 2007. And we got married on June 7, 2008. I can't wait to see where our lives take us....together, forever.

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
I am
I am The luckiest

Saturday, June 4, 2011

What exercise looks like

Warning: The picture below isn't pretty. You've been warned.

Happy Saturday! The weather here in NorCal is still very unstable with steady rain falling today. I stayed up late last night (10:00 is my version of late) and managed to stay in bed until about 7:00. No 4:00 a.m. workout on a Saturday. I did have high hopes that I would spend a good amount of time at the gym this morning and I am happy to report that I was successful. The gym was a bit more crowded than I had hoped (8:00 on a Saturday is prime time) and for some reason, ESPN has been replaced by a local sports channel that plays endless infomercials on the weekends but I started watching a movie thru my Netflix app and made it through the final part of my workout.

Treadmill: Run/Walk intervals for 60 minutes: 2 minutes running at 5.2 up to 6.3 speed. I realized quickly that 5.2 was just too slow for me which has never been the case and a majority of the time I was running at 5.5 and above, 2 minutes walking at 3.5 speed and 5% incline.

Elliptical: 30 minutes

Drive home for 6 minutes and decide I haven't done enough yet and turn on the 30 Day Shred and complete Day 3. And here is what I looked like after nearly 2 hours of working out.

Yes, that is sweat.

I could have used a long nap but duties called so I went grocery shopping and didn't really sit down until 1:00 when I promptly fell asleep on the couch for about an hour. It was dreamy. I am helping my sister photograph a local event tomorrow starting at 6 a.m. so as of right now, my plan is to get up at 4:30 (on a Sunday) and do the 30DS to get it out of the way. I'll let you know how that goes.....

Thursday, June 2, 2011


When my alarm went off at 3:30 this morning, I rolled over and switched it to 4:30. Going to the gym just wasn't going to happen but I needed to workout. I know that the 30 Day Shred is a great workout and since it only takes about 20 minutes, I could start it at 5:00 and leave myself plenty of time to get ready for work after sweating with Jillian.

I've decided to add the 30 Day Shred to my daily workout routine. I'll go to the gym in the morning, do my normal 60 minutes of cardio and 20 minutes of weights and add in the 30DS in the evenings. My plan is to do 10 days on each level. I have done Level 3 one time. It wasn't as horrible as I expected but it was still pretty painful. I recall falling to the ground in a heap midway through and pushing myself to finish, even if it meant doing half of each exercise. That isn't as pathetic as when my husband*, being a manly man, claimed he could do Level 1 without breaking a sweat and later confessed that he could barely get through one set (it is broken into three sets of weights, cardio and abs). HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. That happened a good two years ago and I'm still laughing about it.

Is anyone still doing the 30 Day Shred? Here is my blog post about my first attempt. Gosh, I sound feeble. It wasn't too difficult this morning and if I would have had more time, I actually considered doing Level 1 again or doing Level 2 as well. I guess my usual 70-90 minute workouts have really made a difference in my stamina!

I'll be checking in every at the end of each level to update on my progress.
Level 1: June 2-June 11
Level 2: June 12-June 21
Level 3: June 22-July 1

Wish me luck!

*Sorry, husband, I hope I didn't embarrass you on the internet.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Think it, Type It

* I live in California. It is June 1st. The forecast calls for rain today (and thunderstorms) as well as rain Saturday, Sunday and Monday. So weird. Considering three years ago this Saturday was my wedding, I would have been in full on freakout mode if I would have been forced to have my ceremony inside of our reception room. ICK. My heart goes out to the brides (and grooms and families) of the people getting married this weekend.

*About an hour ago, I started to notice a pain in my throat. Then my head started to get warm and now I feel kind of spacey. I'm not sure why I am getting sick now but I am not happy about it. At all.

*I have been reading online that today is National Running Day. My legs must have known because I managed to run 20 minutes straight on the treadmill this morning, followed by 5 minute high incline/run intervals.

*Things at home are kind of backwards but will go back to normal in about 2 weeks. I wish 2 weeks was sooner.

*Tuesday is my 3rd wedding anniversary, the 18th my sister-in-law graduates from high school and on the 23rd my niece turns SIX YEARS OLD and finishes kindergarten. How is it possible that these kids grow up so fast???

*I recently went clothes shopping for some professional type clothes and have been wearing them to work and feel completely different! I usually just wear jeans to work but wanted to step up my game a little now that I will be in the office 40 hours a week opposed to at schools with students. If I remember, I'll set up the tripod and do a pictorial fashion show this weekend of my new threads.

*I have nearly completed our itinerary for our trip to Washington D.C. and New York. I have a couple more reservations to make but the majority of things are booked and I seriously can't wait to be there.

*I have to admit that taking a break from making a child has lifted so much weight off of my shoulders. I can't help but hear the tick tock in my head as each month goes by, I am a month older and another month goes by that I am not pregnant but not taking meds and going to doctors appointments and getting disappointing news does wonderful things for my mental health. It makes me realize how much being in the throws of trying to conceive with infertility issues really sucks. I'm happy to be on the outside of it for now.