Monday, August 13, 2012


I turned 33 on Saturday. I spent the weekend at Donner Lake (just outside of Tahoe) with my family. It was a great weekend. My mom rented a house up in the hills among trees so high it seemed like they touched the skies. The stars were so plentiful that I hurt my neck staring up at them. I even took a nap outside on the deck and at times, I could hear a pin drop.

Throwing a bullseye was all I really wanted for my birthday and I did it!

And now that I'm 33, I have some perspective. I know, I'm so mature right? The past few years have been challenging. Things could be worse but I'm not one of those "other people have it so bad that your struggles seem dumb" type of people. We all manage our own emotional reactions to life events. For me, our challenges have been, at times, more than I can handle. And no matter how many times I try to use the "be thankful for what we have" line, I still feel like something is missing from our lives. But those feelings go away little by little and I step outside of myself to admire my life. It is a good life. 

I try not to get envious of what other people have because they might want what I have! And I try not to complain too much about things that CAN be different (my pay at work, my flabby stomach, my house not being clean enough) because it is up to me to make those types of changes. If I want better for myself, I need to go out and get it. 

So today, I'm going to try to escape the negative. That doesn't mean I won't complain about stuff but I'm going to limit my complaints. I can't allow negative energy to feed me. It is like a parasite that chews away at your soul and I see it happening slowly. 

Life is good. 33 is good. It is up to me to make this year the best year. And I plan to.

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