Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Our "First" Thanksgiving

The thought that keeps running through my head is "never say never, Michelle." It wasn't too long ago that I said, "I never want to host Thanksgiving. Too much pressure. Too much work. No thanks."

This is my dining room table. Those sparkly pretty place mats were only $2 each at Walmart. The cloth napkins were wedding gifts. This will be the first time using them. And the first time eating at this table. We aren't formal folks. 

And that. That is a turkey in my fridge. And a veggie tray.

We are hosting Thanksgiving. Don't tell anyone but I'm actually looking forward to it. Shhhhh. It's a secret. Chris is in charge of the turkey (he is using a smoker to smoke it. Scary). I'm making mashed potatoes and candied yams. I've never made candied yams in my life. We'll have appetizers and wine will be flowing early on in the day while I cook and clean. 

It is the combining of 4 families. 11 people total. Me and Chris. Chris' brother and fiancee. Chris' parents and sister. My sister, husband and nieces. My mom is heading to San Jose to my Aunt's house (where we go every other year). We will visit my dad at his rehab center after we eat. I'm struggling with that A LOT but I know it will be okay. My mom is seeing him on her way to SJ so he will have some company in the morning. 

Life is tough right now. It could be tougher though. On this Thanksgiving Eve, I want to give some recognition to all that I am personally thankful for:

-I'm thankful to my husband for being a constant source of support for me and my family.
-I'm thankful to my sister and mom for stepping up and making things happen. They are amazing.
-I'm thankful that my dad is okay. He isn't 100% like we wish he was. He has a lot of work to do but I'm thankful for his humor, his heart and his kindness as we all experience this challenge together.
-I'm thankful for my in-laws as they have been so caring and supportive as well. As always.
-I'm thankful for extended family and friends who have showered us with love and assistance. 
-I'm thankful for my cousin Christina who picked up the tab for lunch on Monday AND stayed with me after I got a flat tire (and a parking ticket) while we were at lunch.
-I'm thankful for my house and the space it provides to host family on this day.
-I'm thankful for my cat for being our (very early) alarm clock, our snuggle partner and a source of fun and laughter. 
-I'm thankful for my health insurance and the ability to see a therapist to help with my worries and anxieties.
-I'm thankful for my gym membership for giving me a place to go that makes me feel better about myself. Even when I can see my stomach rolls in the mirror when I'm working on my squats!

I could easily be angry during this time but I have nothing to be angry about. We are strong and we are working together to be positive and proactive. I refuse to be angry. People are suffering a lot more than we are. We are blessed. 

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday. Be kind to one another. Appreciate what you have. And if you are planning on shopping Black Friday sales, please, I beg of you, don't leave family gatherings to hit up the stores on Thanksgiving night. No tv/computer/whatever is worth leaving family. It just isn't. 

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