JUST KIDDING. Not those kinds of details! Considering how up front I've always been about our journey to get pregnant, I thought I would fill in the blanks a bit about what has been going on the past 2 months.
***Like I said in my post on Monday, I found out I was pregnant by taking two tests at work on 8/2. When I was just 2 days late, I looked back at 12 previous cycles and noticed that in July 2012, my cycle lasted 28 days which is unusual for me. I immediately figured that in July 2013, my cycle would be the same and decided to just move on with my life and expect my period on Thursday the 1st or Friday the 2nd. When I got to work Friday morning and had no normal signs of anything, I drove to CVS, got a cheap test and took it in the bathroom at work. It immediately came up positive. I ran outside and called Chris. I was crying harder than I have ever cried in my life and my left leg was shaking so bad, I thought I would collapse. We determined that the test wasn't accurate and I should go get another. (A Friday in August means it is DEAD in my office so sneaking in and out was easier than usual.) I didn't want to go back to CVS, so I headed to Safeway and got the last digital test on the shelf. I chugged a bottle of water on the way back but still needed to wait 30 minutes to get the urge to use the bathroom (hilarious, since I've had no problem going pee anytime in the last 2 months). When it was finally time, I sent Chris a text (and my BFF Melissa, who was on Period Watch with me all week) and got down to business. I stood in the corner of the largest stall while the hour glass turned. I was a nervous wreck. Finally, I leaned towards the test and saw....Commence freak out. Commence running outside to call Chris. We again decided that I should probably get a blood test to confirm. I also called Melissa, who is the most amazing person in the entire world and to be able to share that moment with her, where I said "it's positive" was so special. We cried together and were basically speechless over the phone. I told her that I had taken 2 tests that morning but didn't tell her the first was positive because I didn't believe it. The amazing people in the Infertility clinic ordered me a blood test that would give me a quantitative hcg test reading. That number was 854. The incredible regular doctor, who went through IVF, called me the following Monday and said she would order me two more hcg tests to ensure my numbers doubled. The results from Monday were 5605 and the results from Wednesday were 12,217. Doubling and doubling. Good signs!
***This is when the secret keeping really started. Aside from a couple people at work and Melissa, no one else knew about this. I kept this secret from my parents, extended family and Chris' family for 3 weeks. And let me tell you-it was NOT EASY. Within that 3 week period, I drove 4 hours total with my sister and dad and spent time that evening at an event with my mom, dad and sister. We had both families over to celebrate my birthday and the following weekend, gathered to have my dad's retirement party. It was not easy to avoid family over that time and I really don't know how we managed to keep it a secret. I felt strongly about waiting until we had our first appointment and saw a heartbeat before revealing the news. In the meantime, I continued to take pregnancy tests like it was part of my job. Don't judge. 4 years of trying to conceive will make you crazy with doubt.
Yeah, that isn't even all the tests. I ordered a bunch of cheap test strips online and took them nearly DAILY.
***After our appointment on Friday the 23rd (in which I couldn't even speak in the morning, I was so nervous), we were on Cloud 9. We ran some errands and made plans to meet Chris' sister for lunch and share the news with her. We had our plans all set out for how we would tell each family member and for his family, it required a few steps. We met Miranda for lunch and sneakily showed her a picture of the ultrasound. That set the wheels in motion. On Saturday morning, we got up and went over how we would spend the next few hours, reviewing the order and confirming that people would be home. We didn't want to raise any suspicion, so we planned to visit people individually, saying that we had something to give them or show them, etc. This post is already crazy long so I don't want to go into each reveal in detail but I will say that everyone was completely shocked. It all went off without a hitch and by the time we left my sister's house after our last reveal, I was exhausted. And relieved. It was a wonderful day! I went to dinner with Melissa that night and got to share everything with her. This pregnancy finally felt real!
***A few days after that appointment, I got a call from radiology to schedule my 20 week ultrasound. I was shocked they schedule this so soon but excited to know that on November 23, we will know if we are having a boy or girl! At the time, it seemed so far away but now, it is just around the corner!
***My next prenatal appointment was scheduled for Monday October 7th and we also decided to have a nuchal translucency scan (a sonographic prenatal screening to help identify higher chances for chromosomal conditions including Down syndrome in a fetus). Since we last saw the baby on the screen at just 6 weeks, I wanted another chance to see the baby so that is the main reason I opted into this scan. Also, with my age (34) and our history of infertility, I thought it would be a good idea. I like the idea of being armed with as much knowledge as possible and to get the peace of mind that the baby is 1) healthy or 2) ability to make new plans if something came back with a high risk. This would be the day that we would start telling the world about our baby. We set up some plans to meet with friends so we could reveal the news in person but by the time 11:00 hit on Monday, we threw that out the window and I started furiously texting/Facebook messaging every single person I knew. We didn't want to wait until Saturday or later to announce on Facebook so the news went out and we were flooded with well wishes. Monday was an incredible day that I will never forget. We both received so many texts, emails and messages filled with happiness and joy. I was so happy to finally be able to share the news with people that supported us along the way.
***As for my symptoms over the past 2 months, I have experienced the main first trimester stuff: nausea, barfing, fatigue, extreme hunger, constantly going to the bathroom. While it hasn't been a complete walk in the park, it hasn't been as bad as other people have had it. Last week was the most extreme as far as morning sickness goes. I threw up Monday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. I'm usually fine once I get something in my stomach but Saturday threw me for a loop when the baby decided it didn't like my breakfast and I threw up twice in one hour. Ouch. The fatigue was also interesting to deal with. A few nights, I found myself in bed at 6:30 and I slept the entire night. I just couldn't stay awake. That seems to have mostly gone away although I do get tired around 1:30 each afternoon, I've been able to stay up past 8:00 the past few nights. Go me!
***And finally, for those of you that might have wondered: this pregnancy was a result of baby-making the old fashioned way. And no, it isn't because I was relaxed. That is a myth. Infertility is not cured by relaxation. I'm not sure why 5+ IUI's didn't work. I'm not sure why after 4 years of trying this happened now. But I do believe, more now than ever, that everything does happen for a reason.
This was just our time. Our time for a miracle. A miracle baby.