Some days, I just want to write. I want to write long, college length paper blog posts about thoughts I'm having, feelings I'm experiencing and what is going on in the world around me. I want to share the joy and happiness I feel about my life.
Other days, I want to hide. I want to get under a pile of blankets and shake my fist at the world. I want to curl up and knock the questions I am having out of my head so I won't have to think about the pain and hurt people have in their lives.
Today is a day for the latter. Some things happen to those in our lives and we sit and wonder "why??" We try to put together the pieces that allow these results. We try to make sense of it all but it never makes sense. A person could drive themselves crazy trying to figure it out. We want to take the pain away, sweep it under a rug and get back to normal.
But there isn't a normal. There is just life. Life that comes in and knocks you off your feet over and over and challenges you to get up and keep moving. Sometimes, even the strongest person has to yell out "I can't get up. I just want to stay on the ground for a little bit."
And that is okay. The ground is okay. And on the day you rise to your feet again and feel the sun on your face and prepare for a new day, a better day than yesterday, you will remember that life is worth living. Even through the pain you feel.
Hang in there, dear friends. I believe better days are ahead.